Every day, even with Newsfire, I end up with a thousand or so posts that I can never read in full. Lethargy, apathy, circumstance, the litany of excuses for not being alive - not that reading every post in a devilishly simple newsreader is life - somehow gives me that feeling, that peculiar disconnectedness, isolation, [...]
I’m amazed that I’m back in the army - for both wrong and right reasons. It’s a time of flux, of change and of that slow, languorous thrum of an engine pulling me into a shimmering, unattainable, distant sunset, and there are anecdotes and lives to revel in, in camp, away from everything else that [...]
Having passed through London, Oxford, and finally arriving in Paris, all in the space of 24 hours, I am almost halfway through my week in a gorgeous, bracing, half-familiar city; so many have come before me that I have almost vicariously lived here, but it is made anew. Words, dreams, ideas, hopes all swim [...]
I’ve bought the lens, made the arrangements, tied up as many loose ends as I could, and now it is just 3 days to go. At some point in the last week I finally ran out of steam; this year has ground me down to nothing at all. After all the dust and packing, moving [...]
By way of remembering. And hinting.
For two, three years I have startled myself by allowing myself to be consumed in a whirlwind of desire, ambition, secret hopes and wretched dreams; now that I am 27 it seems clear that none of it amounted to very much except for the ideals which remain pure and unblemished [...]